I wanted to share my testimony with everyone. I went for an endoscopy yesterday. Only a few weeks ago I had the same procedure done. For the last couple of years I have had barretts esophagus with cancer prone cells. I have had to have this procedure done twice a year to check on it. The last test I had did not look good as the acid erroded my voice box and vocal chords and I had no voice for a month.
I knew this was a testing of my faith. Could I be patient enough ? I shared with as many people thru my drive thu as much as I could about the faithfulness of God. Customer after customer they asked why I continued to work with no voice. My answer, because I work for God. If God asked you to work, wouldn't you ?
So day after day, customer after customer, I waited. Some days it was hard as I could barely even whisper. I just prayed harder letting God know that I knew Satan wanted my voice, and if I had to learn sign language, I would continue it out. It was at the drive thru that a regular customer questioned me and told me about an herb called marshmallow root. I studied it, prayed about it and decided to buy it.
God faithfully sent me the answer to my dilema.
As I got my results yesterday, I braced for the worst, knowing that the bioptsy only less than a month before was not good. God is faithful to those who trust him !!! My doctor was completely amazed, I had not one ulcer left, I have no signs of Barretts at all (This is rare) and the celiacs disease is also no more !!!!
I still have reflux, but the diseases it caused have vanished. My redeemer and friend knew that I could not handle it any more and took it away !!!
I can't tell you how many times I felt like this was a never ending race, but I kept my focus on God knowing that he is victorious. I know that no all get healed, and when that happens God has reasons, but I have my voice, and health, so I want to shout it out to all..... PRAISE BE TO GOD FOR I AM HEALED !!!!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Thru the Fire
I was listening to a sermon by Joyce Meyer. She was explaining that when you go thru the problems in life and you are placed into the fire, not only is god helping to change you, but others are bringing glory to god as well, as others watch you and learn from you.
Praise God, there is something good coming from this nasty divorce. There are so many days where the tears flow heavily, because I love my husband and this is tearing me apart. Somehow though, God found a way to strenthen me every day. He showed me how to forgive my husband thru all of this. He showed me how to turn to others and not be selfish and concentrate on myself or my situation.
Praise God, I don't have to handle this at all, because "the battle is not yours, thus sayeth the Lord." !! I know this is a spiritual battle. Why then is it so easy to get worried, or anxious ?? Because I forgot to equip myself for the day. On the days that I start out reading God's word, reading encouragement from Charlyne Cares with Rejoice Ministries, and the days I put on the armour of God, I find no problems. But let me wake up late, and be in a rush and the devil says Look I have found a toy for the day. Those days when I realize the devil is playing with me, I have to apologize to God and tell him I am sorry that I did not find the time for him, and I make the time then to get closer with My heavenly father.
Before this divorce started, I was shy. Ask me a question and I'd give you a brief answer. Now look out, God enabled me to talk, and I just want to Glorify HIM more !!
I enjoy calling others and lifting them up for the day. I enjoy spreading God's Love. I can look back to different points on my journey thru this fire, and I know that it must be coming to an end. I can see how much God has changed me, and changed others around me. I just pray that I can perservere and allow God to fully mature me.
Thank you Father, for being beside me helping me thru this !!!
Praise God, there is something good coming from this nasty divorce. There are so many days where the tears flow heavily, because I love my husband and this is tearing me apart. Somehow though, God found a way to strenthen me every day. He showed me how to forgive my husband thru all of this. He showed me how to turn to others and not be selfish and concentrate on myself or my situation.
Praise God, I don't have to handle this at all, because "the battle is not yours, thus sayeth the Lord." !! I know this is a spiritual battle. Why then is it so easy to get worried, or anxious ?? Because I forgot to equip myself for the day. On the days that I start out reading God's word, reading encouragement from Charlyne Cares with Rejoice Ministries, and the days I put on the armour of God, I find no problems. But let me wake up late, and be in a rush and the devil says Look I have found a toy for the day. Those days when I realize the devil is playing with me, I have to apologize to God and tell him I am sorry that I did not find the time for him, and I make the time then to get closer with My heavenly father.
Before this divorce started, I was shy. Ask me a question and I'd give you a brief answer. Now look out, God enabled me to talk, and I just want to Glorify HIM more !!
I enjoy calling others and lifting them up for the day. I enjoy spreading God's Love. I can look back to different points on my journey thru this fire, and I know that it must be coming to an end. I can see how much God has changed me, and changed others around me. I just pray that I can perservere and allow God to fully mature me.
Thank you Father, for being beside me helping me thru this !!!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Temptation ....
It is so easy to fall in one of the pits that Satan opens up right before you.
For me I have always struggled to be the best. I HAD to be a manager. I wanted the
top and nothing was going to stop me.
This is how Satan lured me, hook line and sinker. I fell into his pit of Pride.
I worked as many hours as I could, allowing me to lose precious time with my wonderful husband and daugher. I did anything just to try to have that prestige, just to try to "get ahead".
So here I am at another crossroad and I am waiting and reaching my hands out to God, to lead me down the right path. The last few months have been awful, and I've prayed for God to help me with my finances. My prayers were answered as I am in management classes right now. Not because I asked, but because God put me there.
I know that if I turn and walk off of God's path that the pride will eat me alive. I find myself struggling. The managers ask me to stay, or to come in when I'm not scheduled, or they compliment my performance. I know that if I don't stay focused on God that Satan will have me where he did before.
Only God changed my life, and I want HIS WILL and HIS WAY. I am not anybetter than anyone else, and I have to remember that God wants me to humble myself. I have to remind myself that nothing is more precious than my daugher, or my time with the Lord, so I can't devote all my time to work.
My favorite verse right now is... 1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man;
and God is faithful, wo will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptaion will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.
My heavenly father knows that HE strengthened me, and HE feels that I am able to withstand this temptation. It's hard, It's really hard... I am constantly facing the mines of Unforgiveness, Disappointment, Fear and now Pride.
I just praise God that I can read the Bible. I praise him that I live in a country where it is legal, and that I can turn to others for the encouragement that I need to get me thru the day, and that when I can't find anyone, that my heavenly father will provide it for me.
Too many times in the past, I wouild step out and try to do things on my own and would fall deeper into one of Satan's pits. I didn't take time to think about GOD's promises, but I rushed past God's ability to provide, restore, heal and I never stopped to consult him about my future.
This time is different !!! I have the ability to say no because Christ lives within me thru the presence of the Holy Spirit.
Proverbs 3:5-7 says :
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge HiM, and HE will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and turn away from evil.
Heavenly father, I do not understand why I am going for management right now. Help me to resist the whiles of the Devil. Help me to stay humble lord. Father, I praise you that you feel I am worthy enough to get this promotion. Father I am leaning and depending on you to help keep my path straight. Father, I know that the devil is right around the bend waiting to pull the rug out from under my feet. Father, I ask that you fill me more with knowledge and understanding of your word. Help me to stay focused on you. Father, I ask that you help me stay tuned in to your warning signals, so that I do not make a wrong step. Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful sinful way in me, and lead me in the evererlasting way...AMEN !!
For me I have always struggled to be the best. I HAD to be a manager. I wanted the
top and nothing was going to stop me.
This is how Satan lured me, hook line and sinker. I fell into his pit of Pride.
I worked as many hours as I could, allowing me to lose precious time with my wonderful husband and daugher. I did anything just to try to have that prestige, just to try to "get ahead".
So here I am at another crossroad and I am waiting and reaching my hands out to God, to lead me down the right path. The last few months have been awful, and I've prayed for God to help me with my finances. My prayers were answered as I am in management classes right now. Not because I asked, but because God put me there.
I know that if I turn and walk off of God's path that the pride will eat me alive. I find myself struggling. The managers ask me to stay, or to come in when I'm not scheduled, or they compliment my performance. I know that if I don't stay focused on God that Satan will have me where he did before.
Only God changed my life, and I want HIS WILL and HIS WAY. I am not anybetter than anyone else, and I have to remember that God wants me to humble myself. I have to remind myself that nothing is more precious than my daugher, or my time with the Lord, so I can't devote all my time to work.
My favorite verse right now is... 1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man;
and God is faithful, wo will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptaion will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.
My heavenly father knows that HE strengthened me, and HE feels that I am able to withstand this temptation. It's hard, It's really hard... I am constantly facing the mines of Unforgiveness, Disappointment, Fear and now Pride.
I just praise God that I can read the Bible. I praise him that I live in a country where it is legal, and that I can turn to others for the encouragement that I need to get me thru the day, and that when I can't find anyone, that my heavenly father will provide it for me.
Too many times in the past, I wouild step out and try to do things on my own and would fall deeper into one of Satan's pits. I didn't take time to think about GOD's promises, but I rushed past God's ability to provide, restore, heal and I never stopped to consult him about my future.
This time is different !!! I have the ability to say no because Christ lives within me thru the presence of the Holy Spirit.
Proverbs 3:5-7 says :
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge HiM, and HE will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and turn away from evil.
Heavenly father, I do not understand why I am going for management right now. Help me to resist the whiles of the Devil. Help me to stay humble lord. Father, I praise you that you feel I am worthy enough to get this promotion. Father I am leaning and depending on you to help keep my path straight. Father, I know that the devil is right around the bend waiting to pull the rug out from under my feet. Father, I ask that you fill me more with knowledge and understanding of your word. Help me to stay focused on you. Father, I ask that you help me stay tuned in to your warning signals, so that I do not make a wrong step. Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful sinful way in me, and lead me in the evererlasting way...AMEN !!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Forgiveness does not come easy ...
Whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses. Mark 11:25
The first thing that all of the disciples did when they came to Christ was to ask for forgiveness and to forgive others.
Since coming to Christ it has been a chore for me. I wake up each day asking God to show me any unforgiveness that I might be trying to hide, so that I may confess it and be freed from it.
For me this is extremely hard. I am struggling thru a divorce and anyone who has been this route knows it's hard not to think, my mate did this, or my mate did that. It does not matter what my spouse has done. God forgave him already, so why shouldn't I ?
In Matthew chapter 5 God asks us to BLESS those who hurt us. It's hard to imagine asking for a blessing when you are in such pain and hurt. I have found that it is true, God does bless those who bless others.
The Lord has blessed me with the knowledge that forgiving my husband did not depend on my husband asking for forgiveness. After all, it's he who wanted out, and he doesn't want anything from me right now. If I waited for my spouse to ask, I'd wait for a lifetime for something that may never happen. So I took a picture of him, and I spoke the words to the picture. Telling him everything that I'd realized that happened and asked for his forgiveness.
It was hard to let go of the past, to honestly forgive, but that's what Christ asked me to do when I read this passage:
forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus ~ Philippians 3:13-14.
I knew then that if I were to be able to have a more intimate relationship with Christ, then I had to forgive my spouse, my spouses family, my friends, my family and even myself. The hardest person to forgive was GOD.
That's right, you did not misread, sometimes you need to forgive God as well. If you do not, then you can harbor bad feelings and let the devils pitfalls of anger, or hurt dwell in you and ruin your relationship with the Heavenly Father. God is your Father, you need to talk to him like you would anyone else. I had to tell him how I honestly felt.... " Lord, I can't believe that you allowed my husband to walk out on me. Lord, you hate divorce, why are you allowing this to happen ? and the hardest was ... Lord, it's bad enough that my daughter and I are going thru this divorce, why then did you allow our car, our home, my job and my finances to be ripped away from us ? I did not want unforgiveness to hinder my prayer life and the close relationship with Christ, so I had to come to my knees and tell God, that although I did not understand the why's I know that I am not supposed to know right now, and that I honestly thanked him for it and forgive him.
So the tears fell, but my heart became lighter and I felt more loved. That's right, my Heavenly Father gave me the hug that I was longing to have for so long.
I urge anyone reading this to learn to forgive... Not forgiving will:
* allow you to remain walking in darkness ~ 1 John 2:11
* allow you to judge others and not yourself ~ Matthew 7:3-5
* Create stumbling blocks to the answers for your prayers ~ Mark 11:25
* allow the enemy to fill you with vengefull thoughts ~ Proverbs 24:29
BUT MOST OF ALL if you don't forgive GOD won't forgive you !!! Matthew 6:15
Prayer:
Heavenly father, you have been so gracious to me, and I pray that whoever reads this finds healing as well. It is you lord who, "heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds " Psalm 147:3. Lord, we praise your holy name that you can do that for us. Protect us lord, do not allow the enemy to convince us to hold on to offenses, but teach us your loving ways of forgiveness. Teach us to be merciful to everyone. We praise your holy name that we can do "all things through Christ show stengthens us", and therefore I know that we all have the strenght to forgive. We thank you that you will be beside us as we live thru the hurts and the dissappointments and that you will be holding our hands as we come to you and the others for forgiveness. Lord, we come before you today asking you to shed light on any pent up unforgiveness that the enemy blinds us with, help us to openly confess them to you so that we can live a life peacefull. Teach us to Love the way that you do, for " if there is any consulation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and mercy, fulfill my joy by being likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind" (Phillippians 2:1-2) Thru the mighty, powerful, loving name of Jesus we pray...amen.
The first thing that all of the disciples did when they came to Christ was to ask for forgiveness and to forgive others.
Since coming to Christ it has been a chore for me. I wake up each day asking God to show me any unforgiveness that I might be trying to hide, so that I may confess it and be freed from it.
For me this is extremely hard. I am struggling thru a divorce and anyone who has been this route knows it's hard not to think, my mate did this, or my mate did that. It does not matter what my spouse has done. God forgave him already, so why shouldn't I ?
In Matthew chapter 5 God asks us to BLESS those who hurt us. It's hard to imagine asking for a blessing when you are in such pain and hurt. I have found that it is true, God does bless those who bless others.
The Lord has blessed me with the knowledge that forgiving my husband did not depend on my husband asking for forgiveness. After all, it's he who wanted out, and he doesn't want anything from me right now. If I waited for my spouse to ask, I'd wait for a lifetime for something that may never happen. So I took a picture of him, and I spoke the words to the picture. Telling him everything that I'd realized that happened and asked for his forgiveness.
It was hard to let go of the past, to honestly forgive, but that's what Christ asked me to do when I read this passage:
forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus ~ Philippians 3:13-14.
I knew then that if I were to be able to have a more intimate relationship with Christ, then I had to forgive my spouse, my spouses family, my friends, my family and even myself. The hardest person to forgive was GOD.
That's right, you did not misread, sometimes you need to forgive God as well. If you do not, then you can harbor bad feelings and let the devils pitfalls of anger, or hurt dwell in you and ruin your relationship with the Heavenly Father. God is your Father, you need to talk to him like you would anyone else. I had to tell him how I honestly felt.... " Lord, I can't believe that you allowed my husband to walk out on me. Lord, you hate divorce, why are you allowing this to happen ? and the hardest was ... Lord, it's bad enough that my daughter and I are going thru this divorce, why then did you allow our car, our home, my job and my finances to be ripped away from us ? I did not want unforgiveness to hinder my prayer life and the close relationship with Christ, so I had to come to my knees and tell God, that although I did not understand the why's I know that I am not supposed to know right now, and that I honestly thanked him for it and forgive him.
So the tears fell, but my heart became lighter and I felt more loved. That's right, my Heavenly Father gave me the hug that I was longing to have for so long.
I urge anyone reading this to learn to forgive... Not forgiving will:
* allow you to remain walking in darkness ~ 1 John 2:11
* allow you to judge others and not yourself ~ Matthew 7:3-5
* Create stumbling blocks to the answers for your prayers ~ Mark 11:25
* allow the enemy to fill you with vengefull thoughts ~ Proverbs 24:29
BUT MOST OF ALL if you don't forgive GOD won't forgive you !!! Matthew 6:15
Prayer:
Heavenly father, you have been so gracious to me, and I pray that whoever reads this finds healing as well. It is you lord who, "heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds " Psalm 147:3. Lord, we praise your holy name that you can do that for us. Protect us lord, do not allow the enemy to convince us to hold on to offenses, but teach us your loving ways of forgiveness. Teach us to be merciful to everyone. We praise your holy name that we can do "all things through Christ show stengthens us", and therefore I know that we all have the strenght to forgive. We thank you that you will be beside us as we live thru the hurts and the dissappointments and that you will be holding our hands as we come to you and the others for forgiveness. Lord, we come before you today asking you to shed light on any pent up unforgiveness that the enemy blinds us with, help us to openly confess them to you so that we can live a life peacefull. Teach us to Love the way that you do, for " if there is any consulation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and mercy, fulfill my joy by being likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind" (Phillippians 2:1-2) Thru the mighty, powerful, loving name of Jesus we pray...amen.
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